Baby, I hope you fly, but I’m afraid you will fly

After my daughter came back from my sister\’s house, she asked me in confusion: Mom, my cousin will go to college in a few days, but my aunt is very unhappy. Doesn\’t she want my sister to go to college? I smiled bitterly: Honey, of course your aunt hopes that your sister will go to college, but she is reluctant to do so. You still don’t understand this feeling. In a few years, when you go to college, your mother will be like this–hopeful for you to fly, but afraid of you flying. At night, my daughter was uncharacteristically insisting on sleeping with me. Although I no longer had to tell her stories before bed, she still had countless reasons why. As we chatted, she fell asleep. Looking at my daughter\’s sleeping face, I remembered the scene when I went to school. My father took me to the long-distance station to take the bus, and my mother took me a long way away and stood there looking at us dreamingly. I was sitting on the back seat of my father\’s bicycle, like a little bird out of its cage. I was in a very happy mood. I didn\’t pay any attention to the complicated eyes of my mother behind me, full of expectation, reluctance, and worry. I have never been away from my parents since I was a child, and I have never done housework. What my mother is most worried about is that I can\’t take care of myself. In fact, children are like this. They never grow up in the sight of their parents. Once they leave their parents, many of them will grow up instantly. But mothers don’t think so. They always think that their babies cannot cope with the complexity of the world, but they hope that their children will go out and see the world and have a bright future, so they have to reluctantly let go. When the bus came, I jumped on the bus. I turned around and waved goodbye to my father, but I saw his eye circles were red. I was heartless and secretly snickered in my heart: Really, I am going to school. It\’s not like suffering. Now that I am a mother, I understand how my parents felt at that time. Faced with the fact that their children are about to leave them, most parents all over the world will have the same conflicting feelings. I remember a few years ago, my colleague’s daughter was admitted to a university in Hong Kong. My colleague originally thought that his daughter would study at a university in mainland China, but now that she has gone to Hong Kong, where the mountains are high and the roads are far away, it is very difficult to go and see her. But no matter how reluctant they were to give up, they could not delay the child\’s future. The couple accompanied the child to school to register when school started. After returning, the colleague looked like he was lost every day. She said that she had to video chat with her daughter every night so that she could sleep peacefully, otherwise she would not sleep well that night. Every night she went to her daughter\’s room, laid out her quilt as before, and then folded it again the next morning. This will make me feel more comfortable, as if my daughter is still around. When my colleague\’s daughter first went to Hong Kong, the biggest obstacle was language. Many course teachers there give lectures directly in English, and what I listen to after class is mainly in Cantonese. For a child who grew up in the north, it feels very strenuous and always makes me cry. My colleagues comforted my daughter every day, cheered her up, and encouraged her to persevere. The most difficult semester has passed. During the winter vacation, my colleague’s daughter has completely adapted to the context there, and she has also learned a lot of Cantonese. Now, she has graduated from college and stayed in Guangzhou. She has a very good job and a bright future. I asked her why she didn\’t let the child go homeWe work in the countryside so we can see each other more often. A colleague said that although the child is far away from him, as long as she is good, he can restrain himself from thinking about her. In the worst case, I will retire in the future, buy a house with my daughter, and stay with my daughter. Nothing is more important than my daughter\’s future. Her words reminded me of the story of a former military commander. This chief\’s hometown is ours. He joined the army as a young man and reached a very high position, but he was rarely able to go home to visit his parents because he was busy with official duties all year round. His father was seriously ill and kept his son a secret from his family. It was not until his death that he asked to see his son. The family told the chief that the old man was critically ill. After hearing about it, he set out overnight and rushed home. The father saw his son who was thinking about him day and night, took his hand and said: Son, I will be satisfied if I can see you one last time. Good men are everywhere. Go fly and don\’t worry about me. You are the greatest father in this life. proud! Everyone present was moved. Yes, all the love in the world points to reunion, but the love of parents points to separation… Baby, I am the person who loves you most in the world. No one in this world can love you as much as my parents do. I\’ve kissed your little face, wiped your little butt, washed your diapers, helped you learn to walk, taught you to recite Tang poems, and shown you the world. Your life has long been connected with mine, and I can\’t help you. segmentation. But no matter how much I love you, I will never stop you from flying for my own selfish reasons. Everyone has their own responsibilities and meanings in this world. Even if your mother gives everything she has, she can\’t take your place. You must walk the road you have to walk alone. I can only look at your back from this end of the road and give you my deepest blessings and prayers. Baby, a complete life begins when you know how to work hard. At this time, you can continue to see the wider and wider sky and earth. Only by working hard to improve yourself can you be able to talk to those interesting souls and have a rich soul. Please allow me to change the words of Teacher Long Yingtai: My child, I let you fly, not to let you compare with others, but because I hope that you will have the right to choose in the future and choose a job that is meaningful and time-consuming. Not forced to make a living. Only when your work feels meaningful to you can you be happy and have the courage to climb higher mountains and see more beautiful scenery. But on the road of life, you will inevitably encounter wind and rain. Mom will prepare a harbor of love for you, so that you can dock at any time. When you encounter setbacks and difficulties, don’t panic. I will always be at home waiting for you to come back. I will hold your hand and lead you through the ups and downs just like you did when you were a child. I will try my best to accompany you on the road of life. One ride, another ride. Baby, while you are still with me and have not grown up, let me take good care of you and love you. One day, you will also have vigorous power, spread your wings, and fly in the sky that belongs to you. May you have light in your eyes and live the way you want.