How did you go from a rule-abiding child to an unruly adult?

When you were 4 years old, your father took you by car to your grandma\’s house. Dad led you and kept looking at his watch. Passing by a traffic light, unfortunately, the green light turned into a red light just after you arrived. You immediately stopped in front of the zebra crossing. Dad looked at his watch anxiously, then at the 100-second red light, and finally at the cars passing by, and suddenly pulled you to move forward. You were stunned, \”Dad, the teacher said you can\’t walk at a red light.\” Dad didn\’t look at you and pulled you to continue walking. You stepped back and shouted, \”The teacher said…\” Your shout was interrupted by the noisy footsteps and whistles around you. submerged. You feel aggrieved and feel that what your father did was wrong. After passing the red light, your father let out a long sigh of relief and said to you gently: \”The teacher is right, but we are in a hurry today, and we are not like this every time, right?\” You seem to understand. I looked at my father and remembered what the teacher said, and it seemed that they were all right. During the summer vacation when you were 8 years old, you went back to your grandma\’s house to stay. Soon, you became good friends with the pillar next door. You squeezed mud together and went fishing together. You had a great time. You were glad that this trip was not in vain. One day, Zhuzi comes to you mysteriously. \”Let\’s go, let\’s take you to eat delicious food.\” \”Where can I find delicious food?\” you asked. \”Hey, come with me. You\’ll know when you get there.\” With many twists and turns, the pillar brought you to a watermelon field. You asked doubtfully: \”This is from your home?\” Zhuzi said: \”No, this is from Erwa\’s uncle\’s home. I observed that no one was here to guard it. Let\’s pick two to relieve the heat.\” But, this is someone else\’s. If we go to pick it, isn\’t it just stealing?\” Zhuzhu said, \”What\’s the matter with you? In our place, children go to other people\’s fields to pick some fruits. As long as they are not discovered, it will be fine. It won\’t happen if you find out, you\’re a fellow from my hometown.\” You feel that this is wrong and don\’t want to go together. Zhuzi was angry, \”You are not a friend anymore. If you don\’t go, we will never play together again.\” You felt that this summer vacation would be boring without Zhuzi as a friend. After hesitating for a while, you still went with him. . Each of you picked a melon, broke it open and ate it on the roadside. No one saw this process, except you two. Later, you went to pick melons with Zhuzi. You comfort yourself that this is for your friends, not to mention picking them up and eating them doesn\’t count as stealing. When you were 12 years old, you ran for class president. You are excellent in both character and study, and you are popular. Your teachers always favor you, and your classmates support you. You know, as long as you prepare your speech, speak it several times in advance, don’t be nervous when you get on stage, and successfully complete your speech, the monitor will be yours. You revised your speech 8 times and gave it to a small group five times. On the day of the election, you took the stage with confidence and finished your campaign speech in a loud voice. As you might expect, the audience burst into applause. During the democratic voting, several other candidates were very nervous, their eyes fixed on the \”positive\” drawn on the blackboard. Only you felt that they were a foil. Halfway through the song, you felt something strange. When the votes were announced, you were in second place, two votes less than the first place. Later, Brother Tie told you that the classmate who came first canvassed for votes. He found most of the classmates in the class, and each classmate gave a beautiful notebook and promised himselfWhen I become the squad leader, I will take care of them. You returned home and locked yourself in the room. You didn\’t shed a single tear, but your heart felt a lot colder. When you were 18 years old, you were a freshman. You are very grateful for your years of hard work and getting into your ideal university. You tell yourself that you must work hard in college and make a difference. You go to class on time every day and always sit in the first three rows. You wish you could write down everything the teacher said. You don\’t care how many of your classmates don\’t go to class, and how many of them are sleeping. You tell yourself that you are different from them, and you will find out in the final exam. In the past six months, your life has been similar to that of high school. As the final exam approaches, everyone starts to get nervous. On this day, the teacher came on stage and said very seriously, today we will sort out the key points of learning this semester. In the next few days, you will still review at your own pace. Those classmates who are usually invisible began to study hard, day and night. You think it\’s funny, what\’s the use of cramming. When your grades come out, you can only be considered above average, but there are several classmates who are basically invisible in class, but their grades are higher than yours. Why are you so angry? My kind-hearted roommate tells you, didn’t you realize that the teacher’s focus in the last class was the test content? If you memorize it these days, your grades will be higher. You wanted to curse, but didn\’t say it. After I graduated, in the first year, my salary was basically nothing except rent and food. A classmate comes to visit you during the holidays, and you want to take him to the local attractions. Check the tickets online, one ticket can buy you food for several days. A local colleague told you that you can enter that park for free, but you need to take a detour and climb in through a gap. You don\’t think there\’s anything wrong with it, everyone does it. That time, his classmates paid for the tickets, and he said he couldn\’t climb the wall. That night, you tossed and turned and couldn\’t sleep. You couldn\’t remember when you became what you are now. There are some things you shouldn\’t do, but you think everyone is like this, and you will suffer a loss if you don\’t do them. Some behaviors that you thought were unthinkable now feel normal. Occasionally, you will be ashamed of your behavior, and soon you will be able to convince yourself of it. You ask yourself, is it because you have grown up? You didn\’t find the answer and didn\’t know when you fell asleep. In your dream, you dreamed of running a red light and being hit by a car. After you woke up with a fright, you couldn\’t sleep again.