Just one word from the child made me collapse into tears and decided to have a second child.

Baoduo\’s father drank some wine last night. When he got home, he sat next to me due to the drunkenness, put his hand on my knee, squeezed it, and said, \”Actually, when you cried that day, I felt quite uncomfortable. \”The day he was talking about was last weekend. Originally, he made an appointment with his friends to go out to play, but Baoduo suddenly changed his mind and decided to stay at home and not go anywhere. So, the three of us stayed at home, Baoduo\’s father was watching the football game in the living room, I was lying on the bed getting ready to catch up on some sleep, and Baoduo was running back and forth between the two rooms. After a while, I heard Baoduo\’s father gasping for air with a hiss, and then Baoduo giggled and ran into the bedroom as if to escape, and jumped on the bed. \”What did you do?\” I asked. \”I pulled dad\’s leg hair, hahaha.\” He smiled evilly. After a while, I heard Baoduo\’s father roar: \”Get out!\” Baoduo happily rushed in again like a gust of wind, jumped on the bed, and got into my armpit. \”What did you do again?\” \”I turned off dad\’s football game.\” He was overjoyed. Baoduo\’s father then walked into the bedroom and lay down next to me on the other side. Baoduo stretched out his foot and pushed Dad out, leaving a gap between him and me, and then he lay down peacefully. He said: \”I am so happy. I hope the family can always be together.\” \”I will be with you even if you die.\” \”You have become a corpse, and I will be with you.\” \”You have become a corpse. Mud, I want to be with you too.\” \”I\’ll lie among your tombstones.\” \”Oh, I have to pee.\” He climbed out of bed and rushed to the toilet. Behind me, uncontrollable tears burst into my eyes. I buried my face in my hands and cried loudly. I have never been so out of control. I was touched, but more importantly, sad. I once saw a photo on the Internet. During the war in Syria, a child\’s parents died in the war. The child who lost his parents missed his parents, so he slept among their parents\’ graves. At that time, when I looked at that photo, I was very moved and sighed: What kind of loneliness it is! At the same time, I am grateful that with the blessing of Greater China, we and our descendants will not suffer such pain. However, today, my son actually said the same thing. There is no war, but the limit of life will still take us away, leaving him with endless loneliness. As soon as this child was born, we were a family of three. To him, the people around him are relatives and friends, but they are not family members. He will have a wife to accompany him in the future, but after his father and I passed away, he was the only one who had beautiful memories of our family together. Before he was three years old, he had no need for communication. Sometimes he would talk to himself when he was alone, or he would play multiple roles and talk to himself, but he did not feel lonely. I don’t remember when he started saying he wanted a younger brother. It was probably after reading the picture book \”A Different Carmela\” that I realized that a family can have more than one child. He asked me if I could give him a younger brother. I declined and said, I am not free. I raised him by myself. I was exhausted both physically and mentally. I felt like I had lost half my life. If I raise another one, I\’m afraid the other half of my life will be lost. I actually like children very much, and I also really want to have a soft and sweet little daughter. However, there are several standards that are circulated on the Internet to meet when giving birth to a second child., we have almost nothing that meets the standards, we are under financial pressure, and we don’t have enough manpower. What\’s even worse is that I have always been a stay-at-home mother, and I have already been criticized when I raised many children. When I have another child, I can ignore the criticism and contempt for the time being. I\’m used to it anyway. Having a second child means that after raising my second child, I may not even be able to find a suitable job, let alone a career. How embarrassing! Baoduo asked me many times, but to no avail. One day he held up his belly and said, \”Mom, there is a little baby inside. I want to go to the hospital to take it out. It is my brother.\” As he gets older, he no longer speaks such childish words, but he pays special attention to other people\’s children. He would want to give his childhood milk bottle to this uncle\’s younger brother to drink milk, and would want to hug that uncle. The younger brother of the family. However, wanting a younger brother, a younger brother with the same parents as him, has always been his third dream and has never faded from his heart. I just pretended not to know. But now, he says he wants to sleep between my and his dad’s tombstones. This sentence pierced my heart, it hurt so much. I myself have brothers and sisters, and Baoduo’s father also has brothers and sisters. We are thousands of miles apart, but nothing can break our psychological closeness. They are people who call me annoying and expect me to annoy them at the same time. They are people who know what I want to say before I even open my mouth. They are people who will always consider my position first in everything. Their existence , itself is a comfort to my soul. I always remember that a long time after my grandma passed away, my uncle would call my mother every time he was drunk. He was almost fifty years old, and he would choke up when he opened his mouth: \”Sister, our mother…\” The kind of bone-gnawing words Missing can only be felt by flesh and blood. Then, let\’s have another child, just so that after we die, all the sorrow will not have to be dealt with by a child. As for the difficulties we are about to face, there are always more solutions than problems in this world. I believe that if a family loves each other and works together, many difficulties that were originally thought to be very difficult can be overcome.