no one loves you more than me

Baby, today is Father’s Day. You said you prepared a gift for Dad the night before. I made some rounds and finally found out that the gift was a book, and I asked my mother to prepare it. My reaction at the time was \”Oh my God! Dad already has a lot of books. Can you give me something else?\” \”What is your favorite?\” \”My favorite, I like many things.\” \”My favorite! \”\”Daddy likes you the most!\” You lay happily on the bed and heard my affirmative answer. I think at that moment, you should be the happiest child in the world. And I am also the happiest dad in the world. What a wonderful thing it is to have someone worthy of your love. Because I can open my heart to it, deliver it without any reservations, and without any scruples. Today, this is a very precious and scarce thing. And we can often do this with our children. Because children\’s love is also hot and direct, and they love their parents without reservation or purpose. When I first heard your loud scream that day in the corridor of the hospital. I knew you were coming. The door to our time has opened. Baby, from the moment I touched your little hand, I felt that our destiny was connected in this life. I won\’t try to control you, but I will love you well. Of course you won\’t control me, but we have long been closely linked to each other. So when I have you, no matter where I am, I will always miss you in my heart. I am a freedom loving person. But my freedom is not to travel far away without worries. But it can take you to have fun together without thinking about anything else. Running on the river embankment, or watching the cars passing by on the street, let\’s count which kind of cars are more numerous. Arguing about what to eat today at the vegetable market, hugging you and talking before going to bed. Now that I have you, I’ve started making plans to “escape from the office.” I worked harder at that time to continuously improve the efficiency of my work. Keep raising wages. But in the end, I found that I still couldn’t have it both ways, because the organization of the work required an investment of time and energy. On many sunny days, I look at the bright sunshine through the office window and want to accompany you to do some interesting things, but I can only sit here and deal with some work at hand. In the end, I resigned and returned home to personally take you to where you are today. Now that I see you preparing to enter school with confidence, I feel it is particularly worthwhile. Baby, actually before you were born. I have thought about what you would look like countless times? I have set many small goals for myself. I\’m going to take you to do things I didn\’t do when I was a kid. Just like now, I sometimes look forward to you growing up. Because I can share something. For example, if you open a can of dark beer at noon, you will get a strong caramel flavor. Let me tell you, \”It tastes terrible, like drinking cough syrup, but without the sweetness.\” Seeing my expression, you said with a smile. \”Fortunately, I can\’t drink yet.\” \”I really hope you can take a sip and see what your expression will be like. Grow up quickly.\” \”Okay, you can drink it in five years, right?\” \”No. Well, I have to wait for you for at least 10 years.\” \”In those 10 years, how old are you? Are you old?\” \”Not old, just right. There are many, many things waiting for you.Let\’s do it together. \”I think that the father and son who know each other will eventually live as brothers. I hope so. When you grow up, I will not be old yet. We ride together, crossing one street after another. I talk to you about my story, and you Don’t be upset. You tell me what’s on your mind, and I listen silently. Baby, I’m really grateful for the changes and inspiration you have brought to me. After having you, my biggest change is that my temper has gotten much better. Because when I was a child, I was I grew up with my hot-tempered grandma. In my memory, she was very kind to me, but she often served me with sticks. Countless times, I cried angrily, hoping that I could faint from crying. But I never cried. Fainted, but my temper became as bad as hers. So the last time you went back to your hometown, you saw a door that was kicked in by my father when he was a child. I grew up and walked a lot, but my bad temper did not change. Later, I I found that getting angry with you would make you unable to adapt and even tremble. I still remember one time when you recited the Three Character Sutra, because you couldn\’t recite a sentence. I didn\’t know why I was very angry at the time, so I scolded you in a stern tone. You. And I saw your little body shaking. At that moment, I knew I was wrong. Those negative emotions hidden in my heart would always come out quietly. Control me and hurt me. You are innocent. I began to understand that many things are not the fault of the children. It is the obstacles in the hearts of parents who cannot get over it. Or they feel that their parental authority is threatened. In fact, no one threatens you. Sometimes it is hidden in childhood. The psychological trauma has recurred. Or the inner fear and anxiety are causing trouble. As you grow up, I am changing my temper step by step. As the old saying goes: \”A country is easy to change, but a nature is hard to change.\” \”So many people say that they can\’t change their temper. But I still want to change for you, and I am also saving myself. Losing your temper often is not good for anyone. Now, I can face your crying calmly and accept your Emotions. This peace is the gift you gave me. And it is also the feeling I hope to bring you. And I found that while changing for you, many wounds are slowly healed. Children are like angels, they can really heal us. . Even if they are bad and lose their temper. It is like a mirror, diagnosing and treating us to see if you are willing to change. A few nights ago, I accidentally clicked on a sad song on my phone. It just so happened that you also Lie next to me and play. I want to see how you feel when you listen to this tune. After listening to it, I asked, how do you feel? You asked me back, \”Dad, how do you feel?\” \”I said that I remembered my childhood and my dad. Because I often tell you stories about my childhood, so you probably understand what I mean. Oh! You said it turned out to be a pitiful feeling. I said you are really happy. , with dad by my side. Unexpectedly, you turned over and pulled me and said, \”Dad, you are not pitiful now. You have me, and I have you!\” \”A good sentence \”You have me, I have you\”. I seem to feel the sound of a piece of ice breaking in my heart. My heart is warm. Children are sometimes like philosophers and poets. Yes. !I have you, I become your father, you have me, you become my son. Baby, thank you so muchYou, let me be your daddy. There are some things that no amount of money can buy. Some things, no matter how much time you spend repenting, you can\’t get them back. I love the present moment. Love you in every way. Just as you love me…